Worth.

Today I really struggled with be alone as an extrovert. I confess, I'm a people person! But just because people don't want to hang out doesn't mean that I don't have friends or that everyone hates me as I like to convince myself. Today just happened to be one of those days when I was not busy and wanted to see everyone while many were busy with prior engagements. I asked God to explain my struggle this afternoon. I think He's just really pointing out this flaw that I've been trying to deny. This whole past year I have really been struggling with seeing people that I want to be like or am inspired by, and confiding in them. While this may not seem harmful at first the underlying problem is that I am trying to be like other people instead of trying to be like Christ. I am putting my trust in others and trying to get my worth from them when I should be finding my identity and worth in Christ and Christ alone. Because of this struggle I take certain things that relate to being alone or being ignored personally. In the same way I try to treat each person with worth no matter how I'm feeling. Anyway, I feel really pathetic for blogging about this because I'm usually not one to complain about my feelings on social media but you know, it's a hair flip. I know I have friends and best friends at that, but this is just something I struggle with. Everyone has their struggles.